intimacy- phobic

Too close for comfort, or not close enough to be comfortable? That is the question that plagues my mind every now and then. This thought manifests itself at the most weird moments. It could strike at any time....enjoying a conversation with a friend, just when you're about to do stuff(yes, this is going to be a shy blog) or missing someone. It pulls my brain in opposing directions, all at once. Sometimes its unfair to the people I love or who love me. But I remain a slave to my dilemma.